Today's Thoughts

Whenever I am depressed of some sort, I would instantly seek for ways to motivate me. I know that I most of the times neglect God's healing power especially on occasions like this. For now, I am happy that I was able to acknowledge this and try to pull myself out of this misery (slowly but surely).

Currently, I don't have a job. I came here in Singapore mainly to earn more so I can support my family better. Mon is hesitant but he agreed having had a very tough time deciding. He finally agreed and we took the risk of resigning from our good jobs in the Philippines.

We both landed a good job but is stressful. Good thing we are used to work pressures. I have earned the recognition and respect from the company I worked with. They offered the position permanently to me but prior to the offer, I have really decided that I want to seek for a new one for a lot of reasons. That's why I declined among the other positions that they offered.

The past months have been pretty chaotic, a lot of issues popped out just about everywhere. My concern list grew, my mind went blank for a moment...

1) Maybe I should have just accepted their offer, at least it's permanent already. I'll be secured. Lesser difficulties, lesser adjustments, lesser headaches.. No more hassle interviews, no more agony in looking for a new job. In short, I am in the comfort zone again.
2) I am worried that I might not get a new job soon. Not only that, I am worried that I may not find "the job" that I am hoping for. "The job" that I can be happier with, feel contented yet challenged, "the job" where I can eventually stay for long.
3) Had some interviews but doesn't seem fit. Though there are job interviews on the way, I feel the need to really refresh my mind with some of the frameworks I have used. I would really want to develop again using those frameworks especially that a lot of companies are looking for it.
4) I have a family that needs my help. Not having a job soon will mean no financial help for the moment. I can't stand that.

Having thought of these things, I know it will just consume me. I could have just accepted the permanent position offer for the meantime while looking for a new one but it just means being somewhere where my heart isn't. I know I will eventually find a new one and hopefully it's "the one". Mon really wanted me to rest for a few weeks but still, I'm pressured.

For now, I am determined to study the frameworks that I have learned before so I can be more confident during interviews. It's tough but I have to do this for myself and my family.

A while ago, I was just about to give up.. then I saw this...

Fresh opportunities to be

Appreciate your shortcomings for where they have brought you. Then release them and be free to rise above the limitations.

Savor the disappointments one last time and remember all you have learned from them. Then let them go and eagerly look forward to new and fruitful experiences.

Sincerely and completely forgive those who have brought you pain, including yourself. And feel the healing that immediately takes hold.

Be truly thankful for having been through so much. Then get busy creating the best of what can be.

Let go of the useless drama that is already over. Hold on to the positive value that you've gained from it all.

Always there are new possibilities to explore, new ways to grow, and new worlds to experience. With each new now, the world is filled with fresh opportunities to be.

-- Ralph Marston