Moving On..

Now, I'm ready to speak my mind... but still just a bit..

It has been a month since the most painful event in our life happened. 'twas Sept 23 when we lost our baby, Angela Marie. She's 21 weeks old in my tummy then.

I have been in a lot of pain for the past weeks. I initially had questions to God on why it has to happen. For weeks, I cried myself to sleep -- remembering seeing her via ultrasound during our checkups, the countless times that Mon and I talk to her, the nights we checked and heard her calming heartbeat, the bond that I had with her. It was and still is lingering in my mind.

It was equally difficult for Mon as well. He initially had a hard time expressing the pain he felt. But he endured everything for me. He has been very caring of me, comforting me and staying by my side at all times.

At first I cannot really understand God's purpose. But as days pass, I slowly began to see that this painful experience gave us more strength and bond as a couple. We're really thankful to Him because we never felt so loved by our respective families and friends. Along with God, they have been with us to provide guidance and support. There might be some more reasons I still haven't realized but I'm sure in time, God will let me see it. Now, I am surrendering it all up to Him.

I still constantly ask Him to give us more strength and understanding. Though I still cry at times, I know Angel is in a better place now, watching over us. She has given us a lot of happiness and joy for the five months that she's with us. Her memory will forever be etched in our hearts. And that is a very very good reason for me to wear again my smile.

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Update 1: On our Own in Singapore

As part of my catching up plan, here it is. :p

We have recently moved to our new place. We have been staying with our very good friend, Cel and her family for more than a year now. She's expecting her second child and they will need more space for their growing family.

We had a lot of fun staying at their place. That flat filled us with fond memories.. From the endless kainan (kaya ang taba namin ni Mon) to our playtime with David and to our 'gimik nights' which are purely series/movie

watching at home, videoke galore (with choreos hahaha), game nights or just the simple magdamagang chikahan.

We will surely miss the times where we are greeted with David's "Hi Ninong! Hi Ninang!" (which was previously Nonong and Nanang hahaha..) and his countless "paghila" to us to play with him and stay with him in their room.

Good thing is... We're just a couple of blocks away! Hahaha.. In short, kapitbahay pa din. Cel and her family are still having a vacation in Manila when we found 'our' place. I was just browsing a website containing units for rent when I came across this ad with pictures posted. I immediately setup a viewing appointment that same day and I loooovvee the place. Though it's only in second floor, doesn't matter. The place is newly renovated,

which nice kitchen and cabinets. The sofa and beds are new as well. So with that, we didn't think twice of getting it aside from the fact that it's very near Cel's place.

We moved last December. It was a very tiring 'lipat bahay'. We were amazed that we have a lot to carry to our new place! We went back and forth our new place to get our things. Add to that the task to arrange things and do our everyday tasks (work, clean, laundry, cook, etc). It took us a while before we have sort of completed arranging our things. And until now, we still have some stuffs to do for the place, but we're getting there.

We really like the place and we have adjusted in a short time. It's as if we are in our place in Sucat (minus the bigger space to clean :p). Alone together. Hehehe.. But eversince Mon started in his new job, whichs is

shifting :(, I am still adjusting to sleeping alone at night. But that's a different story. Will create a separate post for that. :)

Once we're done tidying up our place so it would look more presentable, I'll post pics. :D

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Back for Good?

It's been months since I have last posted an entry here. My fault. Mostly pure katamaran to blog. Whenever I attempt to write, nothing comes out of my mind. Probably because there are a lot of things going on in my life, I don't know where to start. Oh well, for the next few entries, you'll be bombarded with what happened in my life for the past months. :p I really have to make bullet points to make sure I will cover everything that I still remember And apart from that, I still have lots of to-dos. Nggiii.. afraid na ako.. it piled up already! haha..

To-blog List
- On our own in Singapore
- Christmas 2008
- Happy 2009
- Back to Pinas 2009
- Hearts Day 2009
- Series Watching
- Fave TV Shows
- Facebook Addiction
- Office Rants
- Healthier Us

To-do List
- Clean up emails
- Upload truckloads of pics from my digicam
- Scan old pics and upload it
- Tidy up out flat better

I have started with scanning old pics. Will probably be uploading it in multiply one of these days. Cleaning of emails - check! Now, Mon and I have started tidying up our place by putting stuffs (mostly for our families in Pinas) in boxes.

Haayyy, hopefully I will be able to complete my blog updates this week despite my busy work sched. 'Til my next entry. :

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